happily crying

Tuesday, August 25, 2009 @ 9:59 PM
i cried but i feel better now.
i suddenly felt so so bad that i couldn't manage my money or my time or my emotions properly and i really don't like to annoy my friends but sometimes i feel as if i have so much to do and so little time and the thought of it scares me.
i think its the way i force myself to acheive the best i can by putting myself down and now its taking a toll on me right now. ahhh i don't care if people think i'm some emotionally unstable freak but i guess i'll become one if i keep on bottling it up.
Free times like this don't come often.
oh found this on facebook. hahah i look spastic but i think i like the glasses-on-head look hahah. oh about eyewear, today i went to the optical shop to order contact lenses and instead of ordering the usual bi-weekly (fortnightly) contact lenses which are rather expensive, i inquired about the monthly ones and eventually decided to get them. Well, i just felt so bad for wasting so much money that i decided to downgrade my contacts to save money.
or maybe i could just skip recess.
or maybe i could stop watching movies
or maybe i could stop eating at frolick
or maybe i could just ride a bike everywhere i go so that i don't need to top up my ez-link card
i think i'll just reduce the movies and stuff la, i doubt i'll go to the extent of riding a bike although it would be quite fun :D and tiring.
about 1 more month to EOYs
:O
i can do this:D and this time, i've learnt my lesson frm MYEs :
always depend on God and never ever think you can make it on your own